Be Myself
December 23, 2009 at 12:59 pm (syndoche) (depression, self, social)
Maybe it’s OK that I’m shy in social situations, that I’m most often the quiet one that nods and smiles, occasionally contributes but mostly listens. Maybe that’s OK. Maybe I don’t have to keep up with David when it comes to being social, be a leader, be a butterfly, be the charismatic focal point. I shouldn’t let him or anyone else (including myself) tell me that it’s not OK, if that’s who I really am.
At least, that’s who I am when I’m trying to be social and not drinking. That’s who I was at Kristy’s party when I sipped one cider for an hour and tried to keep a conversation limping along but just couldn’t because I didn’t have enough lubrication.
